Studying for finals. In need of some serious cuddling when I get home. I’m ready to breathe a sigh of relief and just fall into Clay’s furry chest. Feel him breathing deeply as I doze gently off to sleep.
Not that ANY of you are going to care but I AM GOING TO KILL MYSELF TONIGHT, I dont give a fuck what anyone says, ive recently been through so much fucking shit and nothing will get better ever, recently been in pysch ward for 2 weeks and things only gotten worse, Just found out i had…
Please. Don’t do it. People do care. They do. I DO. Please. Try calling 1-800-SUICIDE. It may seem like it won’t help, but try it. Please. You can make it. You are strong enough to take this on.
PLEASE REBLOG OR LIKE TO SHOW YOUR SUPPORT AND THAT YOU CARE
I can’t even explain the feeling that consume me nowadays. I suppose they’re on account of me being in love, but I can honestly say I’ve never pictured myself as a suzy homemaker. Now? I dream about pastel kitchens with pale pink blenders and apricot walls (not to mention the dainty cotton-white trim). Of fluffy beds that smell like sweet detergent and feel like a cloud. Of photo-lined hallways and girlish aprons, and an entire shelf of cookbooks filled with old family recipes. Of a small garden in an Alice in Wonderland-esc backyard that’s overgrown with flowers and veggies. Oh! And windows everywhere! The kind that let the sunlight slowly wake you up each morning.
I want all of these things more than anything. I want to be the epitome of a girl. I want to be loved and desired whether I’m a girlfriend, a wife, or perhaps even someday, a mother. As a matter of fact, I’ve never wanted to be a wife before! I’ve always thought the entire idea of marriage was stupid and pointless, and you didn’t need a diamond to be in love. While I still hold that belief, I certainly wouldn’t mind the gesture someday down the line. Far down the line, but there, nevertheless.
Actually, instead of being inspired by love, I think all of this has grown inside of me after meeting the perfect girl. She’s stunning, sweet, always well-dressed, cooks, cleans, keeps a tidy home, is a fantastic decorator and gardener… she’s everything a man could dream of a girl being. She’s lovely.
Lovely! That’s the exact word I’ve been looking for this whole time. I want to be lovely. Not pretty or cute, or beautiful even… simply lovely.
Do you think this one guy should try to fix things with a girl instead of just throwing everything away? you know this person too
Well, that all depends on the situation I think. In high school and college, I think there’s a tendency to throw away something that seems broken when it’s really just damaged. If you feel like you truly love her, and you feel like giving up is really throwing it all away, I say fix things. Hell, I say try to fix things no matter what at first. Well, unless you’ve fallen out of love. Once one person falls out of love, it’ll never be the same, I think (that’s from experience, not just giving you ideas).
Personally, I find that fixing something that’s been damaged helps you get to the root of the issue. If you can fix that root, well hey! You’re in for an even better relationship than before! If not, then it’s time for both of you to accept that you’re unhappy and that you could be happier with someone else.
What's your favorite thing about Lexington? You reblog a whole bunch of their pictures!
My favorite thing about Lexington… that’s a really, really difficult question.
Physically, I have to say I love our buildings. The architecture is so cute and fun, and there are quite a few different colors splashed across them (not to mention a few murals, too!). Sitting on the fourth floor of the library looking out over vine is awesome.
But as far as mentality goes, Lexington has such a wonderful feeling to it. It’s a good-size city, yet it feels like it’s itty bitty. The six degrees of separation law has definitely been hacked down to 2 or 3 degrees.
On a lighter note, make sure you check out Street Scene’s blog! So far the other girls have been writing everything, but my first post goes up Monday. Please follow along! We update at least once a week, and always once a Monday. We blog about everything from our Look of the Week to vintage photographs, and DIY projects to random (always vintage or fashion related) urges. All of the girls have a different writing style, so posts are always a treat to read.